There’s a well known Christian song where the lyrics ask God to, “Break my heart for what breaks Yours.” I never realized how dangerous this prayer was until I decided to fervently pray for this in Haiti…
Of course since my first trip to Haiti in April, God has definitely been shaping and molding me through experience. But since arriving in Haiti, I can give you a few ways that my heart has been broken…
On Tuesday (December 7), I was helping out in a medical clinic filling out “Dosiers” (the patients paperwork)…and I asked this one beautiful old lady what her name was (in Creole), she answered very slowly and deliberately. Then I asked how old she was (in Creole also)…she paused for a moment, looked up at me then reached for her small purse she was carrying. Thinking she didn’t understand me, which was often the case when Haitians see a “Blanc” (White person) speaking Creole, I repeated the question enunciating loudly and intentionally.
By that time she had her purse on her lap and had a small piece of paper in her hand…she stuck her hand out and handed me the paper…not sure of what it was, I opened it and saw the number “76″ written on the piece of paper…it had already been a very long day, and seeing that just broke my heart. Could you imagine not knowing your age? Just living day by day trying to survive and not worrying about how many years you’ve been doing it for. Here was this beautiful 76 year old woman who had been waiting in the hot sun for almost 5 hours to see a doctor and she did not want to forget her age, so she carried it with her.
My heart broke when I realized, that since she didn’t know her age or day of birth in fact, she probably never celebrated a birthday. Her complaint of body aches and exhaustion broke my heart because I knew that she HAD to work in order to eat. If she wasn’t able to do work to earn something, she would not be able to live. The elderly are forgotten here, much like the orphans.
My heart BREAKS for God’s people…it has been breaking since the moment I arrived in Haiti and I know it will not stop.
I don’t know about you, but I believe and know that God answers prayer…and when I prayed for God to “Break my heart for what breaks His.”…He answered it.
God’s heart BREAKS for the injustice in Haiti. God’s heart BREAKS every time He looks into the eyes of a hurting, tired person. God’s heart BREAKS for Haiti. And so does mine.
My prayer today is that you can pray that God Breaks Your Heart for what breaks HIS heart. But be ready. This involves pain and sadness but most importantly Action. God will break your heart into fervent ACTION that leads to incredible PASSION for ALL of His children and for His Kingdom.
(Written December 8th)